April 2, 2014

hobby hopping

I love photography. You know that, right? You might not, especially if you have been along for this little ride here on the blog. It is a confusing relationship I have with photography. I love it. I hate it. I avoid it. I devour it. I really, truly do love it. And let’s just throw some honesty down here…I am good at it. I can say that. It is not easy for words like that to come from me, I am realllly good at knocking myself down, it’s a little harder to lift myself up. But yeah, I am pretty good at photography. But here’s a little secret- just because I like it, and/or am good at it, does not mean I have to do it all the time. Or that by not doing it, I am wasting it. I do not have to do it all of the time. I do not have to make money at it. I tried that, and sometimes I think that is where we can pinpoint where my relationship problems with photography began.

I don’t like being told what to do. I am bratty like that. And the more people that push my own art on me, the more I find myself pushing it away. Just imagine me as a teenager ;) Plus, honestly? I haaaaaaaaaaaaate the whole process of photography. I adore creating the images. Getting lost in my own little world when I am looking through the viewfinder. But after that? uuuuuugh. Sitting in front of the computer. Culling images. Editing images. And then what? I used to love sending film out, and the excitement of opening that envelope to see your images come to life. Now? I finish up on the computer………….and there they sit. Pffffft.

Photography will always be a part of who I am. But I find that throughout the years I have pushed it to the side to hop around to other hobbies. I used to make jewelry. That was kind of fun. And ahem expensive. And then all those beautiful beads sat in boxes in a closet. And then I hopped on the scrapbooking train. That was fun for about 5 seconds before my ocd kicked in. Scrapbooking + OCD = nightmare. And then one year, I asked for a sewing machine for Christmas. And then I started buying fabric. And then I started making little things. And then. And THEN. I realllly wanted to make a quilt.

gutermann thread | quilting | SW Florida Photography | Kulik Photography

You guys…I hobby hopped and then landed on the jackpot. I. Adore. This. Hobby. ADORE.

But let’s be clear on something…I have no idea what I am doing! At. All. But yet I enjoy almost every moment. Even the moments that freak me out and I avoid, once I start doing it, I am so very content. My mind is a very busy place, and when I am in the midst of a project everything just quiets. I just focus on the task at hand, and there is nothing else in the world. I love that. And maybe that is why I love this hobby so much.

quilting | SW Florida Photography | Kulik Photography

I also am learning that I REALLY love making things for people I love. I finally got the confidence to make my first gift quilt, for my mom. I am terrified to send it her way. What if she hates what I created? What if the whole thing falls apart?! But what if she loves it? I currently have a nice long list of gift quilts, and that makes me smile. Hopefully, they will all stay in one piece :)

Quilting | SW Florida Photography | Kulik Photography

And what I find the most ironic bit of it all? I find myself thinking…wouldn’t it be nice to get so good at this that one day I could sell my quilts? :p LOL

And so, there you have it. My new hobby. I will always take pictures. Always. But it nice to step away from my camera and not feel like I have to take pictures. In the meantime, I will be sewing :)

I’ll leave you with my favorite thing I have made so far….

Quilting | Chevron Quilt | SW Fl Photography | Kulik Photography

 

 

March 27, 2014

escape

Costa Rica |Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photographer

It has been a loooooong and emotionally exhausting month. I have found myself just wanting to escape. And this bit of heaven on earth? This is where I would like to escape to.

March 20, 2014

the wait

Costa Rica | Iguana | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photographer

geez! I am not sure if it could have taken any longer to get this picture posted. I mean…WEEKS! My blog has not been friendly with me as of late, and so I had given up on it for a time. I decided to be bold this morning, and look at that! Apparently we are on speaking terms again :) I’ll take it!

I hope this shot was worth the wait. It happens to be one of my favorite images from the trip ♥

February 18, 2014

still

And as you journey to your final rest,
take with you this…I loved you best.
          – Jim Willis, I Loved You Best

 

Doodle | Black Pug | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photographer

3 years and still. I loved you best. I will always have loved you best.

 

February 15, 2014

day 6 pt. 4 {vacation chronicles}

How many parts does Day 6 actually have?! I have a hard time letting go, what can I say? Really though…we are almost to Day 7. I figure if I work this right, by the time we get to the end of this vacation I should be leaving on a jet plane for my next trip down there. And then we will just rename the blog {The Costa Rica Chronicles} Sounds good, right?

So listen. Day 6 was pretty great. But then there was this moment. And I started crying. And stomping my feet. And then I looked up at the sky, and the sky was dark, and little rain drops hit my forehead, and then I panicked. When I am taking pictures, I tend to lose myself a bit. I am not super aware of my surroundings. I sometimes lose things. And during day 6, the time finally came to change my memory card. And so I took out the card that had six days worth of photos on it (SIX DAYS WORTH OF PHOTOS), put it in my card case, but the card case in my back pocket, and carried on with my day. And then. And then I realized that my card case was gone. And with it, every. single. photo. I had taken on the entire trip.

Shall we talk panic? Did I mention my card case is green. A great match to the lovely green grass. Would you like to know how much grass we walked through? PANIC. Ok. So I remembered exactly where I had changed my card out, so at least we had a starting point. And I had decided that worst case scenario, I would put out a reward to the staff, and pay who ever found it for me. We were in a poor country, those photos were worth a lot to me, I knew they would help me out. Because even without the money, I had yet to meet a Costa Rican that wasn’t willing to help.

We split up, and not long after I heard a whistle. I went running to the whistle, which was coming from my husband. And there. There in his hand was my card case. SIGH OF RELIEF.

Were the photos worth it? Absolutely…

Costa Rica | Iguana | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photographer

Costa Rica | Iguana | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photographer

SO. How did I lose my card case? I was crawling around on the ground, creeping in on this guy’s personal space. When he first looked at me with this face, I thought for sure what he was saying went along the lines of “girrrrrrrl, you better back up. Have you seen how long my tail is?” In hindsight, I think what this face was saying was “girrrrrrrrl, did you not just see that your memory card case just fell? Pick it up!

Costa Rica | Iguana | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photographer

 

 

 

OK   *sigh of frustration here* My most favorite photo of all of these? Well, I can’t show you. Because I think my blog has had enough of my procrastination and has finally decided to punish me for my inconsistent blogging and refuses to allow me to post any more photos. I am embarrassed to admit that to just get these three photos in took over a week and a half. *SIGH* So, that is all for the moment…..I need to go stand in a corner and scream now!

 

January 14, 2014

{day 6} longest day known to man.

Have I left you lingering in Day 6 long enough? Are you ready to move on? Are you even still out there? The good thing: I’m back and ready to pick up where we left off. The bad thing: did I mention my adoration for Day 6? Well. I adore it. And well, there is more Day 6 to get through. Seriously people, I adored this day.

For anyone that knows me, they know I have an incredibly unhealthy obsession with time. It is really one of my most frustrating traits, and it effects my life in numerous ways. I hate the passage of time. I will not enjoy a moment, because I am too busy obsessing over how long the moment is actually taking. And now look at the time! We have wasted so much time! It is annoying and stressful and draining. And I think that is why I loved this day so much. It felt like it went on and on and on. And I feel like I never thought about how much time all of that on and on and on was taking. I simply lived in the moments of the day. That is sort of an amazing feat for me. So forgive me as I drag this day out and enjoy every last drop of it :) And on to the next morsel of goodness of Day 6….

The butterfly garden. Ahhhhhh. The butterfly garden. We had agreed that once we returned to the resort after our horseback ride we would explore the resort grounds, starting with the butterfly garden. I wish I had taken a picture of the outside of the garden, because it was just a drab little greenhouse, nothing special, nothing big. Yet it held us captive for such a long period of time, because there was so much to take in. Everywhere you looked there was something. We walked in circles, following the same paths over and over, but always feeling like it was the first time for all the new surprises it had to offer.

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There is totally so much more from this garden. Some of my most favorite photos from the entire trip came out of this greenhouse and they deserve their very own post. Coming soon! (I swear swear swear I will be back sooner than two months!!!)

January 11, 2014

for now

Costa Rica | Tilajari Resort | Costa Rica Butterfly | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photographer

I was going to carry on with Day 6. Then I got distracted. And the idea of blogging might have suddenly sounded really tiresome. I get tired easily. I mean, some call it lazy. I just say I get tired easily. It sounds so much better in my head. So for now just a quick little peek. I promise you we will carry on with the fabulously glorious day 6, and all of the remaining days, soon. But until then, you can marvel at a butterfly butt. You’re welcome :)

January 7, 2014

the obligatory post

First of all…can we ignore that little 2 month hiatus??? I am going to go with the idea that I really, really adored day 6, so I wanted to soak in it for a bit. That sounds good, right? And really, it’s pretty true. There was something about that day that will bring me warmth for the rest of my days. I promise we will get back on track over here soon. But in the meantime, we need the obligatory new year’s post, don’t you think?

I was actually feeling kind of down about this past year. I was reading other people’s posts and seeing all they have accomplished in this past year (because didn’t you know the healthiest thing you can do is compare yourself to others???) and I lamented to my husband that I had accomplished not one thing in this year. He stared at me for an uncomfortable period of time before plainly saying “What are you talking about? You barely had time to take a shit this year, you were so busy.” That. That right there people, is why I love him :) Then he got up and made a very short, but very important list.

+ I passed my national certification for surgical technology.
+ I was promoted at my job.

Boom…right there are two pretty big accomplishments. The longer I sat on it, the more I realized that I did accomplish a lot in this past year;

+ I completed a year of hellish schooling, passed my national certification, and began a brand new career.
+ I began a brand new career….only to discover that that was not where my heart belonged. I was very fortunate to be presented with an opportunity to remain at my original job, which has always been where my heart lies, and is where I am now.
+ I bought myself a Brand. New. Car. This is very exciting. I am insanely proud of how hard I have worked to become financially responsible, and all of that paid off when I was able to buy myself a brand spanking new car, all on my own. ♥
+ A broken relationship has been mended, and my heart is so much fuller because of it.
+ I went through a crazy hair crisis journey (so vain, right?!). A simple hair cut actually had a lot of unexpected side effects on my life, and I kind of like where it has brought me. (blog post on that some other day, promise!)
+ In celebration of graduation we took a dream trip to Costa Rica and had the time of our lives.

And that is my year. The year that I at first thought contained nothing important. It was actually a pretty important year. So what does 2014 have in store? I’m not sure. I am hopeful for this year though. I started making a list, and had decided that this year instead of just choosing one word it would be a multiple word kind of year. And then when I sat down at my computer to create something with my list, one word slapped me in the face. More.

MORE 2014

My entire list consisted of things I wanted more of. Not in a greedy GIMME! kind of way. Just more. Well ok…maybe a little bit in a greedy way :)

Patience. I need to work on being a more patient person. With the world around me. With myself.

Music. My world, and my peace of mind, revolves around music. I want more music. More concerts.

Love {self}.  I need to love more. I don’t love well. I abuse it and don’t tend to it the way I should. I have a difficult time showing it to others, and an even more difficult time showing it to myself.

Craft. I have been learning (very slowly) to quilt over the past few years. This year I want to focus much more strongly on this craft. I also have vowed to learn to knit. Which, to date, has only resulted in me throwing knitting needles across the room. What was that I said about patience????

Friendship. Tough truth? I don’t do friendship very well. I am very difficult to maintain a relationship with. I am antisocial, hate the phone, have a thousand excuses why I need to stay home/not call/see you next time. I want to nurture my friendships this year. I have two incredible besties, and I don’t give them the time and attention that they deserve. I want to improve on that in this year.

Health. Would getting skinnier be great? Absolutely! But I have learned over the years. That is a silly thing to strive for. This year I have (quite slowly) been working towards a healthier me. I totally still do damage to cupcakes, but I have been working on creating a stronger body, and as you work on that I find it effects all sorts of other aspects in your life. So I will aim for health. and strength.

BOWA. This year, I will stop wishing for what is on the other side. I will stop pining for what I don’t have. I will start making the Best Of What’s Around. This might be the most important thing on this list. This effects me in so many ways. And it frustrates me. And yet I continue to live my life in the same way. There is a Dave Matthews Band Lyric that sums me up perfectly: What I want is what I’ve not got, What I need is all around me. I want to start appreciating what I do have, and finding peace in that. This will be my loftiest of goals. You cannot change a lifetime of behavior in one year…but you have to start somewhere. And the first step is hardest of all. (*Can I just do a little tap dance over all the Dave references I just poured all over this one?!)

I hope this year brings you all that you strive for. And if it doesn’t, I hope you are able to make the best of what’s around! ♥

November 5, 2013

day 6 pt.2 {the vacation chronicles}

Upon the return from my first trip to Costa Rica my mind reeled with all that I saw…and all that I did not capture with a camera. My passion for photography was within me at that time, but it was buried far inside of me. It hadn’t been realized yet. It was only after that trip that I started realizing what kind of photographic journey that trip could have been. We had plans to return, and I convinced my father to send me his camera. The camera that I learned photography on. The good old (literally, old) Minolta. And then a hurricane hit our town. And life was interrupted. And our trip back was cancelled. And I sent the Minolta back.

We constantly talked about returning, but life did what it does best and got in the way. Hubby returned a few times for fishing trips, and I stayed home, cursing him the entire time. The further away I got from my introduction to Costa Rica, and the more I embraced photography, the more determined I became that when the day came that I could finally return, I would photograph all the little critters that, up to that point, I had to rely on my iffy memory banks if I wanted to revisit that first trip.

At the top of my list were the leaf cutter ants. I was fascinated by these guys. Somehow, they were the epitome of being somewhere foreign. Somewhere exotic. I mean, they were in National Geographic magazines after all!

And so my mission on this trip was to photograph the leaf cutter ants hard at work. And ummmm, I was about to learn that this was going to be some hard work!

Hubby stole this snap of me scrunched up on the ground trying to get some shots. I think this gives you a good idea of just how small my subjects are- at first glance it just looks like I am shooting the dirt ;)

Behind the Scenes | Macro Photography | Leaf Cutter Ants | Costa Rica | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photographer

I think it would be fair to say that the leaf cutters were some of my hardest subjects on this trip. These boogers are fast. I desperately wanted to get a shot of a line of them coming right at my camera, but that would basically mean I would have to lay in their path, and I just couldn’t quite do that, though I put myself as close as possible. In the end, I didn’t get the shot that I wanted, but I got shots that I didn’t expect to get and couldn’t be happier with. These shots might quite possibly be some of my favorites from the whole trip.

Costa Rica | Macro Photography | Leaf Cutter Ants | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photography Costa Rica | Macro Photography | Leaf Cutter Ants | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photography

Costa Rica | Macro Photography | Leaf Cutter Ants | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photography Costa Rica | Macro Photography | Leaf Cutter Ants | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photography

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November 2, 2013

interlude

Costa Rica | Dragonfly | Kulik Photography | SW Florida Photographer

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